By the time this post is published I will be in Shanghai. By the time this post is published I will have had long enough to stop crying. By the time this post is published Mozzy, my 15+ year old kitty, born in Nanning, China will have had his last bits of candied salmon before meeting his ancestors. This is a safe enough place to write what I am going through emotionally before we say goodbye to Mozzy. The decision was not easy to make – even with the support of our veterinarian. The practical side of me – a word I think was voiced far too often because what else can be said – knows the decision to stop treatment and let Mozzy be pain free is for the best. We know the decision has not nothing to do with my looming departure. And loom it does. Like a monster of guilt.
Guilt with wondering if I did enough. We did. Guilt with wondering if Mozzy could have lived longer. Yes, but in a deteriorating condition. Guilt wondering if he is happy on this, his last, day. I think so, he ate a little salmon. Guilt also, wondering if I waited too long. That thought alone is what will get me through the day. During a long talk with the vet we both voiced our amazement that Mozzy made it beyond the end of August. Did I prolong his life for him or for me? Perhaps a little of both. Until last night Mozzy was making every attempt to appear well despite the severe weight loss and pain. By morning he was not. I can only hope he understands and will still love me until the end.
My daughter threw a birthday party for my that Mozzy took control of. I think he thought it was for him – typical kitty. However, I needed to let loose some of my sadness before it swallows me up. I could not post anything to friends, not yet. So, by the time this is posted time and distance may have helped with the healing. Mozzy is just as much a family member as my children. They know.
Post Script: I did eventually write something on FB, there are people who would want to know. It dawned on me that some friends even knew Mozzy when my youngest daughter first brought him home at seven weeks old from the hole in the wall store outside the school I worked at in Nanning after seeing a child kick him. Mozzy had been promised to us but I was not ready for him at such a young age. He immediately squirmed his way into our hearts. Either my sister or the vet said perhaps Mozzy will be with me in spirit when I am in China. I like that. I miss him.
Did I really say I would blog twice a week? While still at home, revving up my engine to leave, I have time. Once in China I might have the time – just not easily accessible sites. I do have a VPN, it worked last year. I do hope I will post about the trip at least once a week plus the mother of the bride insights on Wedding Wednesday. Not that any of this has to do with puns, nor needles.
Pins, I had a notice from Stillpoint Community Acupuncture offering a free session the week of my birthday that I thought would be foolish to pass up! Considering one session is $40.00 – although the sliding scale starts at $25.00 – it was a great way to prepare my poor aching knees for lots of walking and climbing. I will still wear the interchangeable stabilizing brace, just not right now as it seems to have scratched and rubbed my leg below the knee (unless it was Mozzy my cat, although possible it is a strange mark for it to be a cat scratch).
Needles, I know it is a good idea to take along a small sewing kit, I just cannot seem to find mine! If I do not I will most likely just throw a standard needle (with a wide enough eye I will not need a magnifying glass) and spool of thread into my tiny first aid kit. Perhaps a bobbin will fit better. The whole plan being prepared without overdoing it.
Pins and needles. Perhaps needless to say but I am now approaching that waiting on pins and needles stage. All the last minute changes, items to still pack, currencies to buy, and visas are pretty well dealt with. I have my visa for China and ordered the Vietnam visa letter that is supposed to fast track things once I arrive. Unfortunately, although most likely easily fixed, I ended up ordering three visas! All because my debit visa would not work. A call to the bank showed no problems. Thank goodness http://www.cheapvietnamvisa.net has several ways for payment to be made. I chose this company solely because my daughter used them last year – time will determine if I am satisfied. I am also pleased it was only 7.55CAD (6.00USD). The actual stamp will be paid upon arrival – 25.00USD.
No more needles? I hope to cut the Cartrophen for Mozzy, it is not making his leg better and he hates going for the 30 minute drive – one way – then being poked and prodded. We have a weigh-in appointment, discussion with the vet to decide if Mozzy might survive the next two months, then some serious decision making. I may need a needle, or a shot of something.
I have noticed I often take snippets of song titles or snippets from lyrics when I am working on a Blog title. They just seem to pop into my mind with the result of having a catchy start and an ear bug for much of the day. I think this is one reason I do not listen to music when I travel. Also the fact I have no idea how to download music and my earbuds (which I hate using) and earphones plug do not seem to fit into my iPhone. I guess that is what one should expect when trying to save money by purchasing a ‘slightly’ used product. Which is why I am at a countdown of sorts.
My previous Blog discussed packing; I have not yet attempted to make everything fit although I remain confident it will. I am counting down the days – fewer than 30. I am counting on Mozzy – my cat – to be well. I am counting on not going crazy when my youngest daughter arrives from Honduras – recently a hurricane went by there and she is much like that force. To my knowledge she is still planning to join me on my Vietnam leg which will certainly help cut costs other than the actual motorcycle tour – we will have our own guides and probably not share rooms until we reach Hoi An.
Family here are planning a celebration for my birthday – I am not looking forward to counting candles! Last time we had a cake with many, many candles (50, for my sister) the smoke alarm went off. Perhaps I will request six sparklers. There is not really anything I want – or rather, what I want will not happen. I do not need anything – besides money or free accommodation of course. I am also counting virtual money – CNY, USD & VND – to work out the various exchange rates into CAD that go along with accommodation and transportation I know I will be using. (My whole budget is based on CAD – readers can now feel sorry for me)
Despite promising myself I would try to not rush about from place to place I have so far booked thirteen hostels and hotels, and that does not include the nine I will stay at during my Vietnam tour! I also have to figure out where I will go for the last six day of my trip. I will also take 8 – 10 trains, one motorcycle, a few subways, some short distance buses and who knows what else. However, even after factoring in three transit days and adding in Hoi An and Hanoi (I love saying those together) plus the six days I need to figure out, I believe my final countdown will still remain at 100CAD (80USD for anyone who does not think in Canadian dollars) per day. I could make it less if I were not springing for three nights close to two sections of the Great Wall at a boutique hotel. My birthday present to myself – they even offered to bake a cake.
I have usually packed, and unpacked, at least once when I am at one month before departure, and this is one month before arrival! It seems that a sick kitty, (no real improvement and now he is eating the coffee plant again) an attempt to work to save money for said kitty, plus various appointments have taken up precious time. Having that extra ten hours back that I was putting in for a low salary – I quit – (and excruciatingly sore knees) means more time with my kitty and finalizing plans. Not that I had not been preparing. That started even before my trip to Ontario in the summer! As previously mentioned I just had not had the same drive to work on my itinerary let alone pack. After shaking off the cobwebs from my brain and the dust from my passport (not really, I keep it in a bag) I finally started working on the Vietnam leg for after my motorcycle tour and the second part of my time in China as well as packing.
Vietnam: I had not highlighted the main on the map posted where I will be stopping at when on the ten day tour. Ho Chih Min, (Saigon); Long Hai; Miu Ne; Bao Loc; Da Lat; Lak; Dray Sap Falls; Chu Se; Kon Tum; Kham Duc; Hoi An. I hope I can still stand upright after such a rigourous journey! All for the grand sum of about 1000CAD so long as our dollar does not drastically fall. (750USD) Food is not included but is very cheap. Although not cheap by any means it is better than attempting to learn how to ride a motor scooter, navigate the roads and deal with signs written in Vietnamese! I keep reading about how wonderfully relaxed Hoi An is. As my daughter will be travelling with me in Vietnam and plans to go diving in Hoi An I decided it would be nice to stay there four nights before heading to Hue for two nights – so far the only place I booked the accommodation. Everywhere else is taken care of. My final destination will be Hanoi where I will buy a train ticket to Nanning, China (where my cat Mozzy is from) to complete my final 22 days. I hope I can write a little about each place once there. Packing: I am often asked, mainly by family, why I prepare so far in advance. I like to be organized so as to ensure I have everything I need and, even more important when trying to fit everything into a 36L backpack and one smallish daypack, what I do NOT need for a 58 day trip. My trip to Ontario and Winnipeg helped me weed out some clothing items as just impractical. I will not need a long dress (if I do I can buy one) and some of my cool, pretty tops are not so cool when it is hot and humid. I also have to rethink legwear to prevent mosquitoes from eating me. Which seems a great possibility.
Being fairly confident I am familiar with various weather patterns in China – although never psychologically prepared for the heat and humidity – I have a fairly decent selection of clothing to meet the ups and downs of my first ten days in late September. As I remain undecided about heading north my focus is on late October into the first half of November when I will be travelling to some of the southern interior provinces where it can begin to be chilly by November. I have clear recollections of needing light fleeces for my daughters when in Yangshuo many years ago as well as summer wear. Sturdy footwear is another necessity – just because the locals might be wearing plastic sandals or flip flops does not mean it is a good idea.
Weather research shows to expect monsoons (one site said typhoons for Suzhou) and rain in general along with daytime highs of 29c (Shanghai) and lows at night of 20c. When I do these searches I begin to ask the question others put to me – why? Particularly when nothing has really changed since my first, truncated trip in 1996. Then there is Vietnam, basically expect rain with heat and humidity although the rainy season might have slowed down when I get there. There is s good chance of flooding in Hoi An. With all of this in mind am I prepared? Probably. I have encountered monsoons – rule of thumb, try to find higher ground, preferably under the eaves of a building rather than indoors where it will most likely be hit, humid, crowded and often no electricity. The latter is based on experience, I still have no idea why the electricity seems to be shut off although common sense says it is a safety precaution.
So, after all of that what am I packing? This is why I plan ahead! As I was laying everything out I was removing adding items. If I add everything up I will be carrying sixty items with me – including the two packs. Some items I can do without but do not want to: a small bottle of maple syrup to share and remind me of home; finger puppets other than my travel companions – who kept jumping into the shots to remind me they are going; 3 packages of Canada pencils for gifts. The puppets and pencils are my nod to being a preschool teacher. Nearly everything is included in the photos.What works to keep the bulk down? Besides just a shoulder bag and buying items as needed (I met one traveller who was doing that) I try to have items I can mix/match/layer. With two distinct seasons and various climates I know I can use leggings under a light pant, a skort or on their own. A long sleeve top can be layered under a short or 3/4 one. A fleece can go over anything. My cover up was free and can be worn in many styles – it also scrunches up into a fairly compact ball. Footwear, yes I am packing slippers; I might pack flip flops (I just do not like them but for showers, beaches and pools they will be handy). One pair of sturdy walking sandals and runners. My floppy hat disappeared on my most recent trip which means I will most likely buy a new one once I am in China. All I have to buy is a travel emergency kit. I am confident will fit – we shall see.